My Story

I was born in Dhuoreding Village near Nasir, in the Sobat area of what is now South Sudan. My father, Maluth Abiel (also known as Tut Lew), and my mother, Nyareth Deng, raised a large family. Nine children were born to them. One was stillborn, six died young, my brother Abiel fell in battle in 1989, and my sister Nyakueth later passed away in Medeni. I remain the only surviving child.

War, grief, and constant movement along the Sobat shaped my hunger for answers. Our path passed through villages and towns whose names still sit heavy in my memory: Mayom, Torkiel, Wijin, Yomding, Paduay, Lual Yak, Baliet, Malakal, Juba, Khartoum, Nairobi. I watched the Lou Nuer and Jikany Nuer fight through the 1990s. As a teenager in Adar, I was trained to carry a gun. Many nights I slept expecting not to wake. Yet God kept me alive, and with time I began to suspect that survival had a reason.

In Wijin I first learned to read and write in Nuer. In Yomding in 1993, I saw English letters for the first time, traced in dust and spoken with unsure voices. Later, in places like Lual Yak, Meer, and Kuich Kuon, I kept learning both Nuer and English, line by line. The world had labels for us: displaced, poor, refugees. Inside me, another word was pressing forward: writer.

As a young man, I laid the gun down and reached for a Bible instead. I climbed trees to read where it was quiet. I prayed in open fields and under night skies. At first, reading was a way to stay alive on the inside. Then I began to write. My English was weak and my sentences rough, but I filled page after page. What began as a way to breathe slowly turned into a calling.

From 2001 onward, I used every chance to study. I joined trainings in medical work, basic education, good governance, and theology. In 2012, through Emmanuel Christian College and the South African Theological Seminary, I completed a Bachelor of Theology. Around the same time, my notebooks grew into manuscripts. I published my first books on Amazon in 2012. By 2024, that seed had grown into one hundred titles spread across ten series. In 2025, I started writing opinion pieces for The DAWN newspaper in Juba, adding a public voice to my quiet pages.

Writing gave me speech. Faith gave that speech direction. I came to see that I am more than a tribe, more than a camp, more than a number on a ration card. I learned a simple pattern for life: identity, action, and the meaning that grows between them. When a person loses sight of who they are, families shake. When many lose sight together, a nation stumbles. When people remember who they are before God and act on that truth, new strength appears.

My journey has taken me from the Sobat River to classrooms and busy streets, from child soldier training grounds to digital platforms that reach readers I will never meet. I am not a general or a president. I am a citizen with a pen. My struggle now is with ignorance, despair, and division. My tools are words, faith, and daily discipline. I have seen with my own eyes that a pen guided by purpose can do more than a weapon guided by fear.

Along the way I began to speak of life in three parts: Being, Doing, and Meaning, with Integration as their ripened form. Being is knowing who you are before God. Doing is choosing to live that truth in ordinary days. Meaning grows when identity and action agree over time. Integration is when a life moves in harmony with God, with people, and with creation. In that place, the soul becomes more whole, relationships mend, and work turns into service rather than mere struggle.

The camps, villages, and cities taught me how quickly labels can strip a person of their story. Names like “refugee” or “poor” count bodies but ignore journeys. I began to write to protect my own story and discovered many others along the way. I write for the child who feels forgotten, for the parent whose sacrifice goes unseen, for the leader tempted to trade integrity for a shortcut. I believe words can carry water to thirsty hearts, just as someone once carried water to me.

If my life says anything, it is that faith joined with action leads to true purpose. Purpose is not only a feeling. It is a way of living. You begin by receiving your name from God rather than from wounds, tribe, or fear. You continue by aligning your choices with that name, even when progress feels slow. Stay on that road long enough and you will wake up inside a life that feeds others.

My story is for people who have been reduced to categories and for nations that have lost sight of their soul. I hope it will serve as both mirror and map: a mirror to remind you who you truly are, and a map to suggest the next small steps. Read it. Share it in your family, your school, your church, your council of elders. Let it move from one heart to one home, from one home to a community, from a community to a nation.

I was born in a small village, trained for war, and called a refugee. By grace, I became an author, teacher, and citizen with purpose. If that can happen to me, it can happen to you. Begin where you are. Let God name you, guide your actions, and grow meaning from your days. Then watch how one faithful life can become a blessing to families, communities, and nations yet to come.

What I Do

Everything I do begins with one simple truth. Life becomes meaningful when who we are on the inside agrees with what we do on the outside. I call this harmony of life Being and Doing². It means that our identity and our actions must walk together. When our hearts, minds, and hands move in the same direction before God, we begin to live with purpose.

I have learned that meaning is not luck. It is built, one decision at a time. It grows from knowing who we are, why we exist, and what difference God is calling us to make. When our Being is clear, our Doing becomes strong. When our Doing reflects our true Being, the result is peace, quiet joy, and a life that leaves a blessing behind.

My calling is to build that bridge every day. I do it through words that wake people up. Through ideas that stretch the mind. Through tools that connect us across distance. Through faith that keeps us standing. Whether I am writing a story, mentoring a young dreamer, or setting up a new digital system, I see it as one mission. To help people live with purpose, work with integrity, and walk with meaning. When Being and Doing² unite under God, life itself becomes a message of hope.

My Portfolio

My life has been my first and hardest teacher. From my childhood by the Sobat River to the digital work I do today, God has been training me. He has taught me to blend tradition with new skills. Village wisdom with technology. Faith with action. Each skill below is more than a line on a resume. It is a bridge to help others find meaning, strength, and direction in their own lives.

1. Writing and Storytelling

Writing is my heartbeat. It is how I breathe on paper. I write to inspire, to teach, and to heal. From opinion articles in The Dawn Newspaper to books, blogs, and essays, my words aim to make truth simple and wisdom useful. I write for ordinary people, leaders, students, and elders.

The benefit to you is clarity and connection. My writing helps you see life from a fresh angle. It gives you courage to face your challenges. It helps you tell your own story with more confidence and grace.

2. Leadership and Empowerment

Through Panmal Foundation and FEBAC South Sudan, I help people remember who they are and who they can become. My approach is built on the equation M = {B, D²}. Meaning is found when Being and Doing walk together. I teach leadership that starts inside, not on the stage. You learn to lead from identity, not ego.

The benefit to you is deep change that starts in the heart and moves into daily life. You grow into a leader who guides others with purpose, humility, and strength, not fear or force.

3. Digital Entrepreneurship and Online Coaching

In this digital age, I help others build online work that is both profitable and honest. I teach affiliate marketing, blogging, SEO, branding, and content creation in simple language. We move step by step. No false promises. No shortcuts that break your soul.

The benefit to you is empowerment. You learn how to earn online in a way that reflects who you are and what you believe. You build a brand that carries your values, not just your logo.

4. IT Services and Technical Support

I believe technology should serve human beings, not confuse or control them. I install Windows systems, secure computers, recover lost data, and design simple visuals that tell a clear story. I enjoy turning fear of computers into confidence.

The benefit to you is peace of mind. Your tools will work more smoothly. Your systems will be safer. Your ideas will look more professional. Technology becomes a helper, not a source of stress.

5. Language and Communication

I work in English, Nuer, and Dinka. I provide translation, editing, and interpretation for individuals and organizations. I pay attention to both words and culture. A message can be correct and still feel wrong if it does not respect the listener.

The benefit to you is clear and respectful communication. You reach your audience with messages that honor both language and identity. You build trust instead of conflict.

6. Theology and Spiritual Insight

As a theologian trained in Hermeneutics and Homiletics, I explore faith with both mind and heart. I love to bring the Bible into real life. On South Sudanese soil. In African stories. In global questions. My teachings bring together Scripture, history, and daily experience.

The benefit to you is spiritual growth. You understand the Bible more clearly. You learn how to live your faith in action, not only in talk. Your faith becomes steady, honest, and practical.

7. Faith and Whole-Life Ministry

Through my work with Faith Evangelical Baptist Church of South Sudan, I teach and serve in ways that touch both body and soul. I am involved in discipleship, peace work, and trauma healing. I believe the Gospel must reach hearts, relationships, and communities.

The benefit to you and your community is real change. You see faith that comforts wounds and restores hope. You see simple, concrete help arriving in hard places.

8. Philosophy and Thought Leadership

Meaning = {Being, Doing²} is not just a formula for me. It is my way of seeing life. Real meaning comes when who we are and what we do match under God’s gaze. I write and teach on purpose, resilience, African wisdom, and national renewal. I ask hard questions and invite others to do the same.

The benefit to you is personal clarity. You begin to see your life as a path of purpose, not just a series of random events. You learn to align identity and action so that your days add up to something that matters.

9. Traditional Survival Skills

Long before I touched a keyboard, I learned how to live from the land. I know how to hunt animals, trap birds, and fish with hooks, nets, and handmade tools. These skills taught me discipline, patience, and careful observation. They remind me that God speaks through creation too.

The benefit to you is resilience. You learn that life is bigger than screens and cities. You see that strength comes from facing hard places and adapting, not from comfort alone.

10. Practical Craftsmanship

I can make herbal medicine, tea, simple wooden tools, nets, and grass-thatched houses. These crafts tie me back to my people and my roots. They remind me that real creativity begins with hands that are willing to work with what they have.

The benefit to you is inspiration. You see that knowledge lives in the land, in trees, in herbs, and in elders. You are encouraged to use what you already have to build, heal, and create.

Each of these skills points back to one truth. Purpose is lived, not just talked about. Whether I am writing, teaching, repairing, or building, I do it to help others see meaning in their own gifts. My story is a small proof that every skill, when used with integrity and love before God, can become a tool for change and healing.

My Philosophy

I have lived through war, loss, exile, and daily survival. Those years taught me one clear truth. The real question in life is not what you own or where you were born. It is what meaning you create with the life God has placed in your hands.

From that conviction came this simple formula:

M = {B, D²}
Meaning = Being + Doing²

This is not theory for me. It is how I understand my own journey as a refugee, student, teacher, author, and citizen who belongs to God. It is also how I help others, especially African writers and believers, make sense of theirs.

Being

Being is knowing who you are beyond tribe, title, flag, or fear. For me, it starts with God. Before I am South Sudanese, Dinka, writer, or refugee, I am a child of God with purpose and dignity. That truth steadies me when everything else shakes.

When people forget who they are, they chase borrowed identities. Politics, money, fame, and pride cannot heal the heart. A tribe cannot define eternity. A title cannot give peace. Without true Being, you drift like a leaf in the wind.

When your identity is rooted in God’s truth, you begin to live with peace. You compare less. You create more. You can face storms without losing your center. Being is the seed. From that seed, Doing grows.

Doing

Doing is living out who you are. Being is the root. Doing is the fruit. People cannot see your roots, but they taste your fruit in how you speak, work, forgive, and serve. This is the D in M = {B, D²}.

Doing is not just activity or success. It is alignment between what you believe and how you live. Doing without Being is like building on sand. It looks strong until the storm comes. True Doing flows from identity in God.

This Doing shows up in ordinary life. In the farmer on his land. In the mother cooking. In the student studying. In the pastor visiting the sick. Greatness often grows from small, faithful acts.

The hardest Doing happens in pain. In exile, my Doing was to keep walking, serving, and believing. My Being in God gave strength. My Doing was the next obedient step. Together they began to form purpose.

Meaning

Meaning is the fruit of Being and Doing walking together. It is identity in action under God’s guidance. Meaning is not an accident. It grows from steady, loving choices over time.

Meaning is legacy. It is what remains after you are gone. Selfish acts usually die with you. Acts of love continue in the lives you touched. Often, Meaning grows in suffering. My years of war and displacement taught endurance and empathy. Pain became a teacher.

Meaning is shared. It lives in relationship with God, people, and creation. Love increases it. Hate destroys it. In my culture, we remember the generous more than the rich. Even small acts can carry deep Meaning.

Success fades when applause stops. Meaning remains because it shapes hearts. The highest Meaning is eternal. It appears when your life lines up with God’s purpose to heal, restore, and bless.

Integration

Integration is M = {B, D²} lived as one whole life. It is harmony between who you are and what you do in every area. With God. With people. With creation.

Integration begins inside. A divided heart cannot bring peace. Then it moves outward into family, community, and land. It replaces anxiety with peace, division with reconciliation, and abuse with care.

After years of war and exile, I often felt scattered. Through faith, I found an anchor in God, a new bond with my people, and a deeper duty to the world around me. I learned that my story sits inside many other stories and inside God’s larger story.

Why It Matters

Any belief that does not touch daily life is empty. M = {B, D²} is how I stayed human when the world tried to reduce me to a number. It is also how I now help those called refugees, poor, or forgotten to recover their Being and rebuild their Doing.

Nations are built from people. People are shaped by identity. When many lives lose Meaning, societies begin to break. Real change starts inside the soul.

If we want peace, we must return to true Being. If we want progress, we need purposeful Doing. If we desire legacy, we must seek Meaning. If we long for unity, we must move toward Integration.

Governments are made of human beings. A corrupt system is a group of people without real Being. But a farmer who lives with purpose strengthens his nation each day. Multiply such people and a country can heal.

Families are the first schools of Being and Doing. When they fall, nations feel the wound. When they stand, the world stands taller. Tribes can give belonging, but when pride becomes identity, unity suffers. Integration reminds us that before tribe, we are one human family under God.

The crises of our age, like war, climate, hunger, and inequality, will not be solved by technology alone. They need people with conscience, courage, and compassion. People whose Being is clear, whose Doing is faithful, whose Meaning is growing, and whose lives move toward Integration.

I have seen both collapse and hope. I have walked through war and exile. I have also seen one honest choice change a life. My Being rests in God. My Doing is service. My Meaning is to empower others. My Integration is a life that seeks harmony with God, people, and creation.

Everything begins with the individual. A broken world begins with broken souls. A peaceful world begins with people who know who they are and live what they believe. If we live by M = {B, D²}, we can move from survival to significance, from division to unity, from noise to harmony. The choice is before each of us every day.